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“FEAR is an emotion I am very familiar with”
I can feel it in my body, CONTRACTING into a tight little fist just around my stomach area. I can feel it in my breath being shallow or being held. I can feel its coldness in my muscles and in my bones. I can sometimes taste its metallic flavor in my mouth. And sometimes the fear can be so strong, that my body automatically revolts and then empties out.
๐๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ธ๐ฏ ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ง๐ณ๐ฐ๐ฎ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ? ๐๐ฐ๐ต ๐ข ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ ๐ฏ๐ช๐ค๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ.
At the same time I can see the fear lurking in my mind. It takes the form of OBSESSION and PARANOIA. My mind starts running wild. Looping around. I feel trapped. Confused. Powerless.
I have the craziest ideas of what can happen to me. They all seem so real. I imagine the worst case scenarios and my mind fixates on them. But I also know the more I focus on the fear the more I afraid I get so I feel guilty about that! Now I feel even worse not just afraid but guilty too.
๐๐ฏ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐บ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐ณ๐ช๐ท๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฎ๐บ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฆ!
๐๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ญ๐ต ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต?
Fear makes me feel like SPIRALING DOWN into a deep dark hole of confusion and paralysis. FROZEN in fear, thatโs how it feels to me.
๐๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ?
FIGHTING the fear DOESNโT WORK. I know that from experience. I just dig myself deeper. Itโs impossible to think my way out of it! Willpower is not enough.
๐๐๐ ๐ค๐ฉ๐๐๐ง ๐ฌ๐๐ฎ ๐๐จ ๐จ๐ช๐ง๐ง๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ง. ๐ฝ๐ช๐ฉ ๐๐ค๐ฌ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐จ๐ช๐ง๐ง๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ง ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐๐๐ง?
How to SURRENDER to something that you want to instinctually go against?
Fear is an emotion. Emotion is energy in motion. It wants to move, wants to complete, to release. I understand that. Resisting fear just makes me more stuck in it, I know that.
๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ง ๐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ช๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ, ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ญ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ?
The first time I thought that this was a scary thought. Allow my fear to be there without any fight or resistance. Without judgement. Only ACCEPTANCE. Staying with my fear and taking some breaths together.
๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ช๐ง ๐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต?
Even though this was a scary thought, my other alternative of keep fighting was an even more scary and depressive. I felt I have nothing to loose, apart from fear itself of course:)
So I just did that. Stopped fighting, put my arms down and relaxed into my fear. Knowing that I am not the fear but the fear is moving through me.
As I sat with my fear and allowed it to be there slowly I started to feel something inside of me softening and opening up. I felt my being relaxing deep at my core. I realized how much I holdโฆ.
๐๐ช๐ง๐ง๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ง, ๐๐ง๐๐๐ฉ๐๐, ๐จ๐ค๐๐ฉ๐๐ฃโฆ
Then this softening began to grow as the fear dissolved and melted away. I could see my fear shrinking and becoming small, even a bit funny and ridiculous.
Now I feel I can breathe deeper and my body is soft, warm and comfortable again. Clarity returned to my mind and my paranoia faded away. I feel lighter and uplifted. Like emerging from a deep cave and standing outside under the sun my bare feet touching the precious Earth.
For a moment I canโt even remember why I was so afraidโฆ
โฆ.it is trueโฆ
โฆ. most of my fears are false evidence appearing to be realโฆโฆ
….only love is real….sending love to my fear
๐ ๐๐ญ๐๐ฉ๐ฌ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐
1. ๐ผ๐๐๐๐ฅ๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ง๐๐๐
Donโt judge yourself. We all experience fear sometimes. Fear is a signal telling us that we are out of alignment with who we truly are. Love is your natural state.
2. ๐๐๐ ๐ค๐ฃ๐ก๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐๐ฎ ๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐๐จ ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐ค๐ช๐๐
Remember that when you are afraid, you are stuck and powerless. To take your power back, you have to face the fear, feel it and let it go. Feel your fear, love your fear, embrace your fear to dissolve it. Remember that you did this many times before, thatโs how we evolve.
Take one step at a time. Trust yourself. Advance confidently in the direction of your dreams.
3. ๐๐๐ข๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช๐ง ๐๐๐๐ง๐จ
How can you face your fears?
You need to take full responsibility for your feelings, thoughts and actions. You need radical honesty to reflect on what works and doesnโt work for you?
Funny thing is that often when you name your fears and look them in the eye, they start to shrink smaller and smaller and in the end they look somewhat funny and ridiculous.
4. ๐๐ค๐ซ๐ ๐๐ง๐ค๐ข ๐๐๐๐ง ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐
To move from fear to love you need to shift your perspective. The best way to do that is to ask good questions like:
What do you really want? What is holding you back? What do you need to let go of?
What is your truth? What makes you feel good, excited, elevated?
What do you need to move forward in the direction of your dreams?
Shifting your mind from focusing on what you donโt want to focus on what you truly desire is a powerful tool to face your fears and take back your power. Your mind is your ally.
5. ๐๐ง๐๐๐ฉ๐๐๐
Action is the last step of manifestation in the physical reality.
Feel the fear and do it anyway! Advance confidently in the direction of your dreams.
Every time the old thought or fear comes around you say: I see you but you have no more power over me! I am choosing to create a different reality that feels better to me. I am taking the next step. I am moving forward. Fear cannot hold me anymore.
When you practice you gain momentum. One thought attracts another. Positive energy attracts more positive energy.
This is a way to uplift yourself to love from fear. Bonus is that when you are uplifted, you naturally uplift others.
So what is on the other side of fear?
Love, hope, God, Source, Spirit, freedom, trust, joy, abundance, compassion, wisdom, truth, confidence, courage, peace.
Yes, yes and YES!
I found all that. Then more layers of fear and more gifts beyond that.
Will this ever end? I donโt knowโฆ.
But something I know for sure.
It gets easier. Life gets better, filled with more joy and love.
My being deeply relaxes into this Love.
Love has no boundaries. I know that. So I keep opening, receiving and giving more love as I let go of the fears.
FEAR. Face everything and rise!
I am grateful for my fears because they show me where I still contract myself, where do I shut myself down, where I feel still pain. I am grateful for my fears because they guide me back to love.
I choose love.
Again and again, until no more fear left.
I love my fears to death! I love you. I love myself. Love is all. All is One.
With love,
Nina Izel
Updated: Mar 31, 2021
